PMS

                         Mr Zachary gave us a talk yesterday. He talked about fear and ask us what is our biggest fear. My biggest fear is being lonely. Whenever I'm alone I'll start thinking nonsense. I went to stepz just now, alone. I think it's around 2 or 3 something... I sat down and started writing on my journal. Then I stare at the door, suddenly tears coming out from my eyes. I don't know why, I just feel like crying. I couldn't control myself. This is what happens when I'm alone. Crazy isn't... But sometimes i enjoy to be alone. I can go anywhere and do whatever I want. I'm such a weirdo. I don't get why people always ask "WHY".. Seriously, I hate to answer this question. You don't need to ask me why, I will tell you if I feel like telling you. Went to sunway with Jovin yesterday, we talked about first love. First love is always the best isn't? My first love was the best but at the same time the worst. I took a few years to get into another relationship but end up realizing I still can't get over it. And now, I really moved on. I stopped thinking about it and it works. I take mass comm but I don't know how to communicate and express my feelings. Should I change my course? I always get upset and down whenever I'm on my period.... I wish there's someone who can be by my side when I'm upset and do not ask WHY I'm sad. Just make me happy will you?